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Thoughts Written Onto Paper

I have spent months building my "acceptance" of my current situation upon the expectation of trying again in the future. But after this long, I feel extremely emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually tired once again. Slowly, I feel myself breaking the concrete and pulling the bricks down. I no longer accept this "acceptance" that I've … Continue reading Thoughts Written Onto Paper

Growing Up and Changing

When I was younger I used to be such a maths and science person. But as I grew older, I've started to look at life and the reasons for living. Now I think I've transitioned into somebody more than just maths formulas and Biology definitions. I look at life through a lens that not many … Continue reading Growing Up and Changing

How to Plan and Organise Your Life to Achieve Goals

I love to binge watch Lavendaire whenever I want to get motivated and inspired to do my work. Lavendaire is a channel where Aileen shares tips and tricks on how to manage your life and be a better version of yourself. Basically, she is the living and breathing example of who I want to be … Continue reading How to Plan and Organise Your Life to Achieve Goals

Mathimata, lessons

I believe that every person you meet in your life is meant to teach you something. You meet people during different times of your life because you need to progress step by step. You learn from one in order to teach the next. And I think that's the sole purpose of living this life; to … Continue reading Mathimata, lessons

Steps to a Better Me

Is it selfish of me to feel the tugging of my heartstrings whenever I see you happy with somebody else? I know that you still love me, and you know that I do too. I know that commitment isn't something that I can ask for, and I know that we both need to work on … Continue reading Steps to a Better Me

Trying my Best

I think even though people have been increasingly more open and honest about mental health, there's still a little bit of stigma over it. People just don't say what they really want to say in front of an audience because that would mean leaving yourself vulnerable to strangers. So instead they close off and only … Continue reading Trying my Best

Same old

I don't think I remember the last time I did something engaging and stimulating for my brain during my own free time. To be honest, I can't even figure out what exactly I do at my leisure. Do I even have time? I probably do but just lack the will and motivation to do anything with … Continue reading Same old

I still feel hope

I can't change the past, and I can't fix what I have done wrong. I can't make things go away and I can't be the perfect person that I strive to be, but yet even when I feel like drowning I still feel hope. Somewhere deep within my soul, in the pits of its darkness, … Continue reading I still feel hope

I am only human

I am going to disappoint all of you one day. You might think that I am beautiful, but I know all of my dirty secrets. You might think that I am intelligent, but I know all the things that I have failed at. You might think I am perfect, but I know about all the … Continue reading I am only human

Hamartia

I think the worse thing about needing a group of people for moral support is when you realise that people only do it because they pity you and not because they really care. I mean, do they really? Or are they just functioning on the belief that they should be the ones doing something for … Continue reading Hamartia